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Almost There
Without a ligh ahead of me,
I walk into the dark,
Nothing there to help me see,
Not a fire, not a spark.
I step the invisible step,
The one that can't be heard,
An though the screams inside of me lept,
I couldn't say a word.
I watch, I wait, I listen,
Your presence is all I feel,
Stars above, they try to glisten,
But darkness, they cannot kill.
Their light isn't quite light at all,
And I know that you're right there,
I reach out for you, but I fall,
And I cry out in dispair.
It slipped right through my fingers,
Just like the hourglass's sand,
Yet the memory still lingers,
And in the dark, I stand.
That's Life
I woke up this morning,
Feeling really numb,
Why did I come home that day?
How could i be so dumb?
I climbed out of bed,
And headed toward the door,
I reached for the knob,
I couldn't take it anymore.
I crept downstairs,
Just as quiet as a mouse,
I had to get out,
Of this jail, of this house.
How much if this can I take?
I can't do this anymore,
So I reached out,
For the handle on the front door.
A hand grabs my shoulder,
Not the hand of love and grace,
But the hand that caught me,
The handprint on my face.
It's the hand of a monster,
From a hellish pit,
The monster full of evil,
And there's no way I can love it.
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Dear
Dad
Once apon a time,
I dreamed of a day,
When I could just smile,
And take your pain away.
I wished for a time,
Way "back in the day,"
When you'd hold me in your arms,
And tell me it's okay.
But those were only dreams, you see,
None of them are real,
I just wanted to have a dad,
And memories you can't heal.
You've had some struggles in your life,
But doesn't everyone?
That's not a reason to ruin the family,
And live life on the run.
You can apologize all you want,
It doesn't matter what you do,
It will never heal the wounds,
Of all you've put us through.
I used to be your little girl,
And tought of you each day,
But now how can I forget what you've done,
And love you anyway?
With that said, I'll say good-bye,
And give those drinks a rest,
And listen to what I have to say,
You're still my dad, just not the best.
Leave Me Alone
How many times will you lie to me?
How many days must I cry?
I push you away though you'd die for me,
And I have no reasons why.
I'm selfish and I'm stubborn,
And maybe that's not fair,
And though my edscuses are old and worn,
I find it hard to care.
I need no one, not even me,
I can't be alone if I'm there,
Two's a crowd, and one is company,
I'm going crazy with me unaware.
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Inside
Maybe it was the way you stared at me,
With that look upon your face,
Maybe it was in the way I look that day,
Like a complete disgrace.
Here I lay in this wooden box,
You never got to say good-bye,
But I didn't want to tell you this,
Because I couldn't stand to see you cry.
When I took out this blade,
And decided, "What the heck,
It's time for me to go,"
I put the blade to my neck.
Pressure on top of pressure,
Pushing it through my skin,
Going deeper and deeper,
Slicing the veins hidden within.
So here I lay,
They sewed me up quite well,
I'm sorry I couldn't tell you friend,
My posessions are yours to sell.
I would have gave you one last hug,
And kissed you twice good-bye,
But I had too much inside of me, friend.
It was time for me to die.
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The
You in Me
Sometimes I don't know how to feel,
You confuse me, changing my mind,
Every pain is yours to heal,
You're of a different kind.
Why do you look like me?
Laugh like me?
Walk like me?
Talk like me?
Confuse me,
Abuse me,
Use me,
See me,
Be me,
But you're not me.
Not me on the inside,
The me coming out,
Changing me,
Rearranging me,
Turning me about,
Poking at wounds you could heal,
Sometimes I dont know how to feel.
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